Mom: Joanna, so I see that you have given up on your room. Should i just, you know, take care of it when you go?
Joanna: No. Just let it be."
Monday, December 27, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Cold Feet.
I really don't want to graduate. Not because I'm afraid of the future or what happens next. It's literally because I love school. I love film classes. I love my film friends. I got the most out of four years, but wow. Yeah. 2 weeks left.
Over 2 weeks ago I was in the catskills. In that same amount of time I'll graduate. I'm not ready.
I know i can still trickle in and use the facilities. But it's more than the classrooms, the computers, and the equipment. It's the people.
i know that luckily i'm in new york already, so i have a much better chance of people not spreading out. However, I guess i'm scared of losing the infrastructure and the community.
Don't leave me hangin'....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
P.S. this pre-stress doesn't help that i'm also shooting my film in 2 weeks.
I have lots of anxiety now. I keep waking up an hour or two before my alarm clock, heart pumping, thinking i shouldn't be sleeping. I'd like to sleep in and not feel guilty when I wake up.-like I should have never slept in the first place.
Aghh. scary. It's mid-april and i'm still freezing in my bedroom... very tempted to turn the heat on. But instead, i'm dressed in fleece PJ pants and thick socks to keep my cold feet warm.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Re-numbering.
Correction. Number 5 isn't a bad thing, and actually gives me more time to deal with number 2.
Also, I was definitely wrong about number 3, and this makes everything better!
Also, I was definitely wrong about number 3, and this makes everything better!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
downer time.
it's that time of the semester, and i'm feeling dragged down by the following:
1. sadness (over my grandpa's cancer)
2. school stress
3. rejection
4. sickness
5. replaced at my job
wow, this IS a slump.
I'll push through.
1. sadness (over my grandpa's cancer)
2. school stress
3. rejection
4. sickness
5. replaced at my job
wow, this IS a slump.
I'll push through.
Monday, October 19, 2009
"Joanna" is overdue at the school library. Due Date: 4 am on a Sunday night!
Exactly one year ago i shot my colorsync, "The Piano Lesson." That was really the biggest stepping-stone of my filmmaker adolescence.
Anyway, right now it's 4am, on a monday night.
I'm in the school library.
I have a bottomless hunger in my stomach.
If i go home to brooklyn, the hour in transportation would cut into the my few hours of sleep before class tomorrow.
If i go home, it's because i care about my hygiene and appearance for tomorrow. This means i will shower and sleep another less hour.
Right now i am deciding between feeding myself/camping out on the animation floor couch. OR, should i go home, to my very own bed (of the foam mattress and loft bed frame sort).
I am not sure. For, I will have to wake up in 4 hours from now. However, subtract the 2 hours of transportation and hygeine, and that's a total of 2 hours of sleep. Is it worth it? I would rather eat. Plus, there are a lot of sleeping people in Bobst. hmmmmm
i feel like my essence is declining at a logrithmic rate. Especially as i sit here, contemplating. I feel really out of it. ---> almost like that homeless person who i accidently let dine while I was hostessing. I still can't believe she drank the wine of the lady sitting next to her. What a fiasco!
Anyway, right now it's 4am, on a monday night.
I'm in the school library.
I have a bottomless hunger in my stomach.
If i go home to brooklyn, the hour in transportation would cut into the my few hours of sleep before class tomorrow.
If i go home, it's because i care about my hygiene and appearance for tomorrow. This means i will shower and sleep another less hour.
Right now i am deciding between feeding myself/camping out on the animation floor couch. OR, should i go home, to my very own bed (of the foam mattress and loft bed frame sort).
I am not sure. For, I will have to wake up in 4 hours from now. However, subtract the 2 hours of transportation and hygeine, and that's a total of 2 hours of sleep. Is it worth it? I would rather eat. Plus, there are a lot of sleeping people in Bobst. hmmmmm
i feel like my essence is declining at a logrithmic rate. Especially as i sit here, contemplating. I feel really out of it. ---> almost like that homeless person who i accidently let dine while I was hostessing. I still can't believe she drank the wine of the lady sitting next to her. What a fiasco!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Things I DID in Arizona!
I'm writing to you the 2nd to last night before I leave, since I know I am the best packing procrastinator I know. (They call me the Packastinator).
Anyway, the following is a list of things I did while being home for a month, the last summer break of my life. Those who say Phoenix is boring can only blame themselves. I more than entertained myself, and still have enough on my original list to do next visit.
- Roadtrip with Gina, Lily (her sister), and Ally to Sedona, where we...
- Hiked a few Vortexes -- Airport Rd., Bell Rock, and Cathedral Rock (where we shouted from the tip top of the mountained and our new hiking friends a ways down shouted back!) (Sedona)
- Slid down and jumped off "Slide Rock," a natural waterpark, where we formed "Tribe Red Rock" by painting our bodies with red clay (Sedona)
- Saw a few shooting stars from the Perseid Meteor shower under a blanket in the middle of a dark/damp gold course (Sedona)
- Visited a charming ghost town (Jerome)
- 4 girls go camping with one sleeping bag, a tent, and no supplies... and then we stocked up at the grocery store. (Outside of Sedona)
- Played guitar around a campfire, with a few new friends, while staying up way past camping quiet hours. (Outside of Sedona)
- We had a blowout on the freeway, where we were forced to pullover on the side of a cliff on the way back to phoenix. Some nice old couple stopped and helped us, in the 110 degree heat. We made it to some sketchy gas station, where I filled the tire with air. By time we finally made it to change our tire, dirty from camping and covered in tire grease, our new friend Scotty, the tire guy, sprayed me down with degreaser. (Anthem)
- Exhausted, sweaty, and filthy, we crashed the beautiful Marriot Resort. Since our 1.5 hour trip took 6 hours, we missed tubing in the Salt River, but we jumped into the tubes of the resort's fake lazy river with about 70 fourteen-year-old football boys. (Phoenix)
- Crashed the W Hotel at night (Scottsdale). In addition to the purple lit-up rooftop pool, the patio also has a sandy beach cabana area!
- Crashed the Hyatt Pool! (Scottsdale)
- Went camping with Nora and her dad!! (Just outside of Flaggstaff)
- Feasted on delicious gourmet vegan camping food (cornbread chili, tofu Scramble, smores and banana boats) a la Nora! (eleanordashwood.blogspot.com)
- Hiked some unlabeled trail with a dried lake, ponderosa pines, and spruce trees!
- Hiked Walnut Canyon, formed by water, and loaded with Sinagua indian ruins!!
- Toured Arco Santi, built by the architect Paulo Soleri! (look it up!) (Arco Santi)
- Gambled with my dad at a couple Casinos, where we played blackjack, slots, and a bit of Poker! (Indian Reservation)
- Saguaro Lake with my parents. I really didn't know such a big lake existed, and never looked at a map and realized how relatively huge it is. I'm still in awe of a lake surrounded by baren desert and saguaros. We ate at a restaurant, and found Sandy Beach, an oasis where summer heat refugees were frolicking in the water. (Saguaro Lake)
- Another weekend in Sedona with my parents, where we hiked a couple vortexes. One trail had the famous photographed spot!
- My parents had psychic readings while I had my Aura read. Apparently i'm mostly yellow, meaning that I'm funny, creative, intelligent, optimistic, logical, and so on for 25 pages. (Downtown Sedona)
- My dad bought me a cowboy hat and I played the kokopelli flute in a gift shop for an hour or so. (Downtown Sedona).
- Went to the delicious "Elote" where they made me vegan enchiladas!! A special mention for that! (Sedona)
TO BE CONTINUED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I must go to sleep now, but i will edit this in the morning!!!) au revoir!
Anyway, the following is a list of things I did while being home for a month, the last summer break of my life. Those who say Phoenix is boring can only blame themselves. I more than entertained myself, and still have enough on my original list to do next visit.
- Roadtrip with Gina, Lily (her sister), and Ally to Sedona, where we...
- Hiked a few Vortexes -- Airport Rd., Bell Rock, and Cathedral Rock (where we shouted from the tip top of the mountained and our new hiking friends a ways down shouted back!) (Sedona)
- Slid down and jumped off "Slide Rock," a natural waterpark, where we formed "Tribe Red Rock" by painting our bodies with red clay (Sedona)
- Saw a few shooting stars from the Perseid Meteor shower under a blanket in the middle of a dark/damp gold course (Sedona)
- Visited a charming ghost town (Jerome)
- 4 girls go camping with one sleeping bag, a tent, and no supplies... and then we stocked up at the grocery store. (Outside of Sedona)
- Played guitar around a campfire, with a few new friends, while staying up way past camping quiet hours. (Outside of Sedona)
- We had a blowout on the freeway, where we were forced to pullover on the side of a cliff on the way back to phoenix. Some nice old couple stopped and helped us, in the 110 degree heat. We made it to some sketchy gas station, where I filled the tire with air. By time we finally made it to change our tire, dirty from camping and covered in tire grease, our new friend Scotty, the tire guy, sprayed me down with degreaser. (Anthem)
- Exhausted, sweaty, and filthy, we crashed the beautiful Marriot Resort. Since our 1.5 hour trip took 6 hours, we missed tubing in the Salt River, but we jumped into the tubes of the resort's fake lazy river with about 70 fourteen-year-old football boys. (Phoenix)
- Crashed the W Hotel at night (Scottsdale). In addition to the purple lit-up rooftop pool, the patio also has a sandy beach cabana area!
- Crashed the Hyatt Pool! (Scottsdale)
- Went camping with Nora and her dad!! (Just outside of Flaggstaff)
- Feasted on delicious gourmet vegan camping food (cornbread chili, tofu Scramble, smores and banana boats) a la Nora! (eleanordashwood.blogspot.com)
- Hiked some unlabeled trail with a dried lake, ponderosa pines, and spruce trees!
- Hiked Walnut Canyon, formed by water, and loaded with Sinagua indian ruins!!
- Toured Arco Santi, built by the architect Paulo Soleri! (look it up!) (Arco Santi)
- Gambled with my dad at a couple Casinos, where we played blackjack, slots, and a bit of Poker! (Indian Reservation)
- Saguaro Lake with my parents. I really didn't know such a big lake existed, and never looked at a map and realized how relatively huge it is. I'm still in awe of a lake surrounded by baren desert and saguaros. We ate at a restaurant, and found Sandy Beach, an oasis where summer heat refugees were frolicking in the water. (Saguaro Lake)
- Another weekend in Sedona with my parents, where we hiked a couple vortexes. One trail had the famous photographed spot!
- My parents had psychic readings while I had my Aura read. Apparently i'm mostly yellow, meaning that I'm funny, creative, intelligent, optimistic, logical, and so on for 25 pages. (Downtown Sedona)
- My dad bought me a cowboy hat and I played the kokopelli flute in a gift shop for an hour or so. (Downtown Sedona).
- Went to the delicious "Elote" where they made me vegan enchiladas!! A special mention for that! (Sedona)
TO BE CONTINUED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I must go to sleep now, but i will edit this in the morning!!!) au revoir!
Things I Want to do in Arizona
So i made an actual list of things i want to do in Arizona, in order to make the most of one month home in Arizona, during the last summer of my life. Then, I publicly shared it on facebook.
Below is the list. Enjoy!
- Spend a few days in Sedona (go to Vortex, hike, meet mystics, buy some rocks) / there's an arts & crafts show 8/15-8/16!
- First Fridays in downtown Phoenix ( There is one this friday! Who want's to go?)
- the BIODOME!!! (google it! az has one!)
- shamelessly run through the fountains at Desert Ridge or Tempe Marketplace!
- Ride the Skyline Ski Lift at Snowbowl in Flagstaff!
- Spend 4 hours waiting for the best Pizza in the country: Pizzeria Bianco
- Take a tour of Frank Lloyd Wright's Taliesin West! (It's like 5 minutes away from my house!)
- Camping!!
- Go find some Hohokam ruins or caves in Northern AZ!
- Play some Basketbal (at night, when it's coolerl!)
- Get lost on the Phoenix Metro!
- the Hyatt Gainey Ranch and sit outside by the firepits, with a cocktail and some mixed nuts. Maybe crash the pool during the day.
- Los Sombreros on Scottsdale Rd. for some guacamole, margaritas, and bottomless salsa.
- the pool on the roof of the W Hotel at Scottsdale Fashion Square.
- Tubing in the Salt River
- Westworld!
- Kayak in Tempe Town Lake
- Go to Vegas! (yes, this one isn't in AZ)
- play POKER at the casinos on the Indian Reservation!
- Some ASU parties (the polar opposite of NYU)
- the BIG BANG dueling piano bar on Mill Ave!
- the Library on Mill Ave! (i've always been curious)
- A daytrip to Jerome (ghost town!), flagstaff, tucson, or bisbee!
- Hit up the nightlife scene in Snobbsdale!
- Wilcox 3rd Annual Grape Stomp! 8/29! stomp your own grapes and wine tasting!
- Crash the pools at the Princess Resort, Biltmore Resort, orthe Point. (I'm flexible)
- Arboretum in Flagstaff! Wild Mushroom Retreat! 8/21-8/23
- Learn your Lizards, 8/8! in Superior, AZ!
- Gelato Spot, Smoothies, Iced Tea!
- Pita Jungle as much as possible (especially the locations i haven't been to: gilbert, mesa, desert ridge)
- explore the Three Roots Secret Anarchy Society
- Cowboy poetry and music jam 8/14-8/15 at Yavapai College in Prescott
- Lowell Observatory, Flagstaff, 8/11 Perseid meteor shower and viewing course!
- hear some local music by some local bands at some local venues!
- Rhythm Room in Scottsdale! (according to Cameron Rochette, "Best Club in Phoenix!")
- watch the film, "Arizona Summer" ...aren't you curious?
- house parties?!?!
Yes, this list could be boiled down into a few things: Pool, Parties, Adventures, and Eating. Who's with me!!?!?!?!!
Below is the list. Enjoy!
THIS COULD BE US!!!
- Spend a few days in Sedona (go to Vortex, hike, meet mystics, buy some rocks) / there's an arts & crafts show 8/15-8/16!
- First Fridays in downtown Phoenix ( There is one this friday! Who want's to go?)
- the BIODOME!!! (google it! az has one!)
- shamelessly run through the fountains at Desert Ridge or Tempe Marketplace!
- Ride the Skyline Ski Lift at Snowbowl in Flagstaff!
- Spend 4 hours waiting for the best Pizza in the country: Pizzeria Bianco
- Take a tour of Frank Lloyd Wright's Taliesin West! (It's like 5 minutes away from my house!)
- Camping!!
- Go find some Hohokam ruins or caves in Northern AZ!
- Play some Basketbal (at night, when it's coolerl!)
- Get lost on the Phoenix Metro!
- the Hyatt Gainey Ranch and sit outside by the firepits, with a cocktail and some mixed nuts. Maybe crash the pool during the day.
- Los Sombreros on Scottsdale Rd. for some guacamole, margaritas, and bottomless salsa.
- the pool on the roof of the W Hotel at Scottsdale Fashion Square.
W Hotel Rooftop Pool!! Yes, at night!!
- Tubing in the Salt River
- Westworld!
- Kayak in Tempe Town Lake
- Go to Vegas! (yes, this one isn't in AZ)
- play POKER at the casinos on the Indian Reservation!
- Some ASU parties (the polar opposite of NYU)
- the BIG BANG dueling piano bar on Mill Ave!
- the Library on Mill Ave! (i've always been curious)
- A daytrip to Jerome (ghost town!), flagstaff, tucson, or bisbee!
- Hit up the nightlife scene in Snobbsdale!
- Wilcox 3rd Annual Grape Stomp! 8/29! stomp your own grapes and wine tasting!
- Crash the pools at the Princess Resort, Biltmore Resort, orthe Point. (I'm flexible)
- Arboretum in Flagstaff! Wild Mushroom Retreat! 8/21-8/23
- Learn your Lizards, 8/8! in Superior, AZ!
- Gelato Spot, Smoothies, Iced Tea!
- Pita Jungle as much as possible (especially the locations i haven't been to: gilbert, mesa, desert ridge)
- explore the Three Roots Secret Anarchy Society
- Cowboy poetry and music jam 8/14-8/15 at Yavapai College in Prescott
- Lowell Observatory, Flagstaff, 8/11 Perseid meteor shower and viewing course!
- hear some local music by some local bands at some local venues!
- Rhythm Room in Scottsdale! (according to Cameron Rochette, "Best Club in Phoenix!")
- watch the film, "Arizona Summer" ...aren't you curious?
- house parties?!?!
Yes, this list could be boiled down into a few things: Pool, Parties, Adventures, and Eating. Who's with me!!?!?!?!!
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